Wasted~

It's already Monday night.
Wasted my weekend doing nothing.
Missing my friends.
Demmit!

Selamat Jalan SAHABAT~

Disember 2005. Tidak ku ingat tarikh yang tepat, aku mendaftarkan diri di UiTM Lendu. Dunia baru yang tersangat asing, ditambah pula aku keseorangan. Tanpa seorang kenalan pun. Minggu Mesra Siswa (kini dikenali sebagai Minggu Destini Siswa) ku harungi seorang diri. Pada tempoh ini, aku mulai mengenal engkau. Engkau begitu galak bersama teman-teman yang baru engkau kenali, sedangkan aku cuma mampu memandang dek kerana aku ini seorang yang kurang pandai membuat kawan. Tapi itu tidak menghalang aku untuk mula mengenal engkau. Persamaan asal usul kita membuatkan kejanggalan hilang dengan cepat tanpa kita sedari. Engkau dan aku diletakkan di dalam kelas yang sama, kolej yang sama, membuatkan hampir setiap masa yang ada dilalui bersama di bumi Lendu ini. 3 semester engkau bersamaku. Bukan tempoh yang sekejap.

Usai tempoh pengajian di Lendu, aku dan engkau dihantar ke Kampus Bandaraya Melaka bagi meneruskan pengajian ke peringkat seterusnya. Alhamdulillah, kerana kali ini, aku bukan di bumi asing dan engkau ada bersama. Jadi, aku tidak keseorangan. 4 tahun seterusnya kita lalui dengan pelbagai kenangan. Walaupun banyak yang manis, tetapi terselit juga kenangan buruk. Kita ke sana ke mari menjelajah bumi Melaka, menambah kenalan. Biar kenalanku makin bertambah, namun tetap engkau yang dicari hampir setiap masa. Aku selesa begitu. 5 setengah tahun kita habiskan masa untuk mendapat segulung ijazah. Lama.

Berkat usaha, pengajian engkau dan aku berjaya dihabiskan. Ku sangka, mungkin kita akan terpisah membawa haluan masing-masing selepas itu. Namun, tuhan masih mengizinkan aku untuk bersama sahabatku. Kita berjaya mendapat pekerjaan di daerah yang sama. Rumah engkau dan aku hanya bersebelahan. Aku tahu aku tidak akan mati kebosanan bila engkau ada. Walaupun tempat kita bekerja tidak sama, namun kita mempunyai tugas yang sama. Mendidik. Selepas lebih 2 tahun di Alor Gajah, aku mendapat perkhabaran bahawa engkau mungkin akan meninggalkan Melaka. Saat itu, aku tidak berasa apa-apa. Mungkin kerana apa yang dikatakan itu belum menjadi kenyataan. Jadi, aku hanya endah tak endah.

Namun, ternyata apa yang diperkatakan oleh engkau menjadi kenyataan. Aku dikejutkan dengan berita yang engkau bakal meninggalkan Melaka minggu ini. Terkejut. Sedih. Itu apa yang aku rasa. Namun, aku cuba untuk menyembunyikan perasaan aku, kerana aku tidak mahu kelihatan lemah di hadapan engkau. Hati mula risau. Otak mula bimbang mengenangkan hari-hari yang akan aku lalui tanpa engkau. Bosan. SUNYI. Itu sudah pasti. Namun aku tetap mengukirkan senyuman di hadapan engkau kerana tidak mahu dianggap terlalu emosional.

28 Jun 2013. Selepas hampir 8 tahun bersama, berkongsi suka duka, susah senang bersama, engkau tiada lagi bersama aku di sini. Tiada ucapan selamat tinggal yang engkau ucapkan kepadaku sebelum engkau berangkat pulang ke negeri kita. Terkilan? Tersinggung? Sedikit. Namun aku tahu mungkin ini jalan terbaik untuk aku mengelak dari menunjukkan kesedihanku.

Kini tiada lagi insan yang mempunyai citarasa yang hampir sama denganku dalam hampir kesemua perkara. Bola. Wayang. Makanan. Filem. Lagu. Melihat bilikmu yang kosong membuatkan hati bertambah sunyi. TERIMA KASIH SAHABAT atas segalanya. Masih banyak hutang budi yang masih belum ku lunaskan. Selamat berjaya di tempat baru. TERIMA KASIH. Masih banyak yang ingin ku tuliskan di sini, tetapi aku tahu, perkataan tidak cukup untuk menggambarkan perasaan yang aku alami sekrang. Mungkin kerana aku dan engkau adalah lelaki, jadi hal-hal sebegini membuatkan aku terasa sedikit janggal. Tapi, aku tuliskan juga nukilan inidengan harapan engkau juga merasakan yang sama. Selamat jalan.

P/S: Aku tahu post ini bunyinya agak homo. Abaikan kerana aku bukan homo. Kahkah!

Hoping for the IMPOSSIBLE

I wish I have the power to stop the time from ticking away.
To grow old is something that scares me.
To lose all the fun that I'm enjoying now is something that I wish will never happen.
But who am I to stop the God's work?
I guess the only thing that I can do now is to just keep on breathing and spread happiness to those who are around me.
Thank you God for giving me the opportunity to be in this world.
I'm truly grateful to have all these beautiful friends around me.
They are the ones who keep providing me with support to go through all my hardships.

Thank you for giving them to me.

Few Hours of FUN~

Just now I went out for lunch with 5 students of mine (1 does not come from the class that I teach). Had a great few hours with them. Went to Nasi Ayam Sungai Udang, before going to Klebang for coconut shake. Didn't talk that much, cuz they were busy laughing at me. Kejam! Thanks kids! Love you all. But I love her more. Eh? Hahahah!

Busy ngadapTwitter smua nih :D

Konon je takut camera. Padahal smua hantu camera :p (Cheya, Eiqa, & Shiera)

Sha & Maira :)

Growing Up

When I was a kid, I heard people saying that being an adult is not an easy thing to do.

Now that I'm all grown up, I am living that phrase.

Being in debt, working life, study life, keeping up with my social needs. Those are some of the things that I need to deal with on daily basis. That is just not easy.

But guess what? Life goes on. Happiness is something that you must seek, not wait. I guess my journey towards happiness will be a long one. Might also be a never ending one. But I'll try to embrace life.

*Keep being myself*

Sial!

Gaji blom masuk + Maxis buat hal + anak jiran memekak dari pagi = Khamis yang tak best.

Kbai!

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mane nk cari eh?anyone with info..please share with me

would really2 appreciate your help! :)

Finally!

Finally..a new post!LOL!

it has been a while since the last time i wrote in here..it's not that i don't want to..but life has been changing and i was busy adapting to it..

since i can't sleep at the moment..i'm taking this time to write again..

just finished my first semester of teaching here in UiTM Alor Gajah..the students are now having their semester leave..so nothing much i have to do right now..keep repeating the same activities as my daily routine..

kinda missing my students actually..they might be troublesome at times..but at least they do provide some kind of entertainment that i can laugh at (sorry kids..you guys are just hilarious sometimes!)

i'll be having my convocation day in about two weeks time..can't wait..

finally i am officially a degree holder..now considering my options in pursuing my Master..most probably will end up as a student in UPM in a few months time..

my football life?right now is praying hard for this friday match (Kelantan vs Terengganu: 2nd Leg)..hoping that The Red Warriors will make it through to the next round (semi-final) after they went down to a 1-3 scoreline last monday..really wish i could go back home and cheer as loud as i can for them..i might be staying in Melaka..but i am forever a Kelantanese..

as for movie watching at cinemas..it cn be said that i rarely doing it..found a new hobby actually which is playing pool..still learning but i can say that i am quite talented in that game (ok..cakap besar..hahah!!but really..i am quite good)

what else to write eh??guess this would be all for now..hey!i think my English is improving despite having to use BM all the time during teaching Basic English Language..haha..ok..the Subuh azan is already being aired..it's time for me to leave..till next time peeps!

haih~

just picturing my mood at the moment :(

updating for the sake of updating~

xde ape pon nk tulis...saje2 update..

skrg ni busy (busy ke??) dgn keje sbg seorg pensyarh yg x berape nk bkaliber kat UiTM Alor Gajah...

a confusing first semester..but hoping to become better as time goes by..

having fun actually with my work..

my students? they can be really annoying sometimes..but luckily diorg ni faham dgn komitmen aku sbg pensyarah n at the same time pyokong tegar Harimau Malaya..

p/s: still bsedih dgn pyingkiran Malaysia dr kelayakan Brazil 2014 :'(

aku dah KEJE!!

just a short entry this time to share with u guys the information that

I HAVE STARTED WORKING!!! (alhamdulillah)

Semangat

2 hari lpas aku pulang ke kampung halamanku (kelantan) bersama-sama sahabat-sahabat dari ultraSel..bertolak dari Shah Alam jam 1.15 pagi dan tiba di Kota Bharu pada jam 10 pagi..tujuan hanya satu..untuk menyaksikan perlawanan yang ditunggu-tunggu oleh ramai peminat dan pemerhati bola sepak tempatan..perlawanan antara TRW menentang Red Giant..tp entri ini bukan untuk mengulas berkenaan perlawanan tersebut yang berkesudahan berpihak kepada tuan rumah (kelantan 1-0 Selangor)..tapi apa yg aku ingin coretkan di sini ialah berkenaan semangat..pertama sekali..aku ingin menzahirkan rasa kagum aku terhadap sekumpulan penyokong selangor yg menggelarkan diri mereka ultraSel ini..mereka bersusah payah dtg ke bumi kelantan semata-mata untuk menyokong pasukan mereka..berhabis wang ringgit demi negeri tercinta..aku juga kagum dengan keberanian mereka utk bersorak memberi sokongan terhadap pasukan mereka walaupun dikelilingi puluhan ribu penyokong tuan rumah..mereka menaha segala cacian dan balingan dengan senyuman..mereka tidak henti menyanyi dan bersorak demi Selangor..kemudian kekagumanku terarah kepada kumpulan penyokong pasukan tuan rumah yang digelar Ultras Kelantan-The Red Mania (UKTRM)..walaupun mereka tidak seakrab mana dengan ultraSel..tapi mereka sedaya upaya cuba membantu tetamu mereka..mereka cuba melindungi sahabat-sahabat seperjuangan dari terkena balingan air dan objek-objek lain (walaupun cubaan mereka agak tidak berhasil)..cukup kagum dengan semangat kedua-dua belah pihak yang cuba membuktikan kepada seluruh rakyat Malaysia bahawa sukan mampu menyatukan rakyat yg berbeza latar belakang..serahkan tugas 'bertempur' kepada pemain-pemain yang beraksi di atas padang..tidak perlu kita sebagai penyokong bertindak diluar akal dan bergaduh sesama sendiri..diharapkan semoga apa yang terjadi diambil iktibar dan semoga perubahan akan terus berlaku..demi masa depan bola sepak negara sendiri..insyaAllah..

The Final Dinner~

Azmin sblom muntah

2 peguam bela bsama mangsa rogol..haha

3 jejaka pinggitan TESL

With Zaza

The Empress of TESL: Puan Aida Azlina

Dinner's PM: Noraina Ayu

baju dinner yg simple :p

3 makhluk berendam sblom melantak..haha

The Final TESL Dinner

it was fun

to all my frens..till we meet again in future

take a good care of yourself

build a happy family and have a successful career of your own

you will always be my frens no matter what happened

love all of you TESLians~

Days of Pleasure~

it's saturday and i have been spending the last few days in GSC (watching movies of course)

so here is my humble opinions regarding the movies that i have watched this week

let's start with HIKAYAT MERONG MAHAWANGSA............

waited for this movie to be released for a few months actually

the trailer looks awesome as if this is not a malaysian movie

Story line: simple..the original chronicle of Merong Mahawangsa is supposed to be longer..but due to the time limitation..the movie has to cut it short..but it is still interesting enough..

Casts: the main cast did quite a good job..although they could do a bit better i guess..the extras were not good enough though..some of them didnt have the appearance of a soldier at all..maybe KRU should do better next time when they want to hire extras..

CGI: kinda dissapointing..especially towards the end of the movie..in fact..it's rather frustrating for me..but after looking at the production crews (filled with local people)..i think they did OK..maybe not as good as the Hollywood productions..but we are getting there (..slowly)..

Rating: 3.5 out of 5 stars..this might seem harsh..but this movie could have done better with some improvements..

now..we move on to the 2nd movie which is I AM NUMBER FOUR.....

a story about a teenager who is an alien and lives on earth..been running from other aliens who are trying to kill him and the other 8 from his kind due to their super powers..met a girl and fell in love while discovering his true strength at the same time..

Story line: the story sounds typical..aint it?but the whole story is much more interesting compared to the summary. this story is wayyy cooler than the Twilight series..with a mixture of romance and actions..the actions are not as good as the other Michael Bay's movies..but still good enough to make u enjoy the movie..

Casts: ok enough for me..the hero is not too macho and cool..looks humble and normal..in simpler words..not annoying as Edward Cullen..Number 6 is cooool man..hot too..heee..others are ok..

CGI: it's Michael Bay's movie..enuff said..

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars..the mixture between romance and actions is well-blended..hope it does have a sequel..

Next up is THE ADJUSTMENT BUREAU........

Story line: awesome..it is quite slow for certain people..but for me..it is a movie that makes u think..the idea of representing other characters in real world with the casts is creative!the story is a mockery towards human being and that makes me think and love it!

Casts: Matt Damon performed well in this story and i think the casting people did a good job in choosing him..Emily is not disappointing either..the duo and the other casts managed to make the story worth watching..none of them disappoint me..

CGI: this is not an action movie..so no comment regarding the CGI..

Rating: 4.3 out of 5 stars..the whole idea of the movie itself is brilliant..plus..it is not too heavy for the audiences (doesnt make u think too hard like Inception)..

Last but not least..RANGO..

Story line: LAME...typical story about a loser who tried to bluff others about himself..tried to sound cool in front of people who dont know him..but finally busted and then thrown out by the local community..got back after self-realization and becomes a real hero..sounds too familiar aint it?everything is predictable in this movie..maybe the target audience is children..but at least they could come out with a fresh idea rather than this..

Casts: the movie uses the voice of Johnny Depp..which is a good strategy to lure people to come and watch it..but frankly speaking..JD did nothing special in delivering his character..

CGI: it's an animation..but the quality of the animation did not really impress me..maybe not as good as the ones produced by Pixar..but OK enough..

Rating: 3 out of 5 stars..the movie is boring for me..luckily the jokes were there..didnt make me laugh hard though..

i guess this is all from me..i may not be an established person to critic a movie..but i paid to watch the movies..and i have the rights to talk about them..hope whatever i wrote here may help u in deciding which movie to watch

PADAN MUKA!!

aku x reti manage time

and skarang padan muka aku!

too many works and assignments with too little time to finish all of em

this is just what i needed

again..PADAN MUKA!!

Another Glorious Night~

semalam aku ke SSA lg..kali ini utk berjuang bersama2 Harimau Malaya utk menentang Pakistan

btolak dari melaka tepat jam 430 ptg dan tiba di perkarangan stadium jam 630 ptg

berkumpul bersama ultras2 negeri lain sebelum bgerak masuk ke stadium

oh ya..aku ke sana dgn kereta si hafidz dan bersama2 kami ialah rizal dan huzir

aku ditugaskn utk bwk masuk drum yg kecik..nk pikul yg besa2..mmg pth tulang aku..haha

lepas amek tempat..sesi memanaskn kerongkong bermula..

kali ini..area Gate 15 yg diduduki UM dilihat berlaku penambahan dari segi ahli

Lekir selaku capo turut menjemput mana2 penonton biasa yg ingin menyertai UM

alhamdulillah..dpt sambutan yg menggalakkan

mungkin pertambahan bilangan kali ni juga disebabkn kehadiran SSU (Silver State Ultras) yg sbelum ini tidak hadir sewaktu perlawanan menentang Hong Kong

slesai masing2 mengambil tempat..dah rapat2kan saf..maka kami mulalah berchanting

jam di scoreboard baru menunjukkan perlawanan berlangsung 3minit di kala SSA bergegar dgn sorakan lantang penyokong Malaysia

ramai di kalangan ahli ultras yg terpinga2 bila tdengarkan sorakan tsebut (maklum laa..kami ni da biasa chant je memanjang..bile masa tgk bola pon xtau)

alhamdulillah..Malaysia bjaya membuka jaringan hasil Wan Zaharulnizam..bile tgk kat utube..baru prasan cntik gol tu..haha

kami teruskan nyanyian kami mcm biasa..smpai la abes game..oh ya..gol kedua dijaringkan ol

eh Irfan Fazali - minit ke 48

lupa plak nk cerita insiden Lekir sentap..

tgh2 chant..tibe2 die mgamuk..igtkn sbb ape..pusing2 blakang..tgk ade sorg mamat pkai bj mlysia tgh pgang mafla vietnam..no wonder la mamat tu ngamuk..

mafla tsebut dirampas..dan dibuang + diludah oleh senior UM

mamat tbabit rasanye beredar disebabkn perasaan bersalah..

kesian jgk kat die..maybe die nk wat lawak..tp x kena tmpat la bro..kalo ko kat area/gate lain..bleh la wat mcm tu..tp bukan kat gate 15..

match slesai hampir jam 11..dan kami (dak2 UTS) ambik keputusan utk trus bgerak balik (memandangkan esok ade klas & keje) dan tidak dpt bsama2 UltraSel dan yg lain2 utk lepak..

kami berhenti mkn di RnR seremban dan tiba di mlaka hampir jam 2..

maka..berakhirlah sebuah lagi perjalananku demi Harimau Malaya dan tanahairku..alhamdulillah..smuanya berbaloi

buat ank2 buah Ong Kim Swee..do ur best in Pakistan..pastikan kita mara jauh dan kalo bleh..smpai ke London 2012 nnt..InsyaAllah~

HIDUP MATIKU MALAYSIA!

My New Family in Melaka

inilah keluarga baruku di negeri hang tuah ini

walaupun baru sbulan bersama mereka..dah terlalu byk kenangan indah yg aku dpt

keluarga kami x besar (lbih kurg 15 org sahaja)

tapi kami tetap bersama..walau apa pon jd..

kami tetap bdiri teguh bersama ketua kami..abang Lekir

terima kasih buat beliau kerana berjaya menubuhkan keluarga kecil ini

moga akan trus bkembang menjadi keluarga yg besar dan dihormati

oh ya..kami semua bernaung di bawah satu nama

~ULTRAS TAMING SARI~

Malaysiaku gah di SSA

rabu lalu aku ke Stadium Shah Alam (SSA) utk pertama kalinya

tlebih dahulu ingin memohon maaf kerana post ini tidak mempunyai gambar utk dipamerkan

sbb trip aku kali ni bukan bertujuan utk bergambar

rabu merupakan hari yg memenatkan (Sangat!)

bgun pagi semata2 utk menghantar surat2 jemputan event aku (public speaking) ke kolej/universiti di sekitar melaka

kemudian bkejar ke kelas pula

tp before ke kelas..singgah dlu di Melaka Sentral untuk tgk2 tiket ke shah alam ptg rabu tu

alhamdulillah..ade tiket ke sana jam 430 ptg

jd aku buat keputusan utk beli tiket tu

sbb ape?

sebab nk ke stadium utk memberi semangat dan sokongan buat skuad bola sepak kebangsaan yg akn beraksi menentang Hong Kong pd jam 830 mlm hari yg sama

kelas aku jam 130 smpai la 430 ptg

dlm kpala duk kalut pikir..sempat ke aku nk kejar bus ni?

alhamdulillah..rezeki aku murah pd hari tu..dan aku sempat naik bus walaupun lewat 5 minit

kawan2 aku yg lain (dak2 Ultras Taming Sari) dah pun btolak ke shah alam tlebih dahulu

meninggalkan aku yg terikat dgn kelas

tp x kesah..aku masih mmpu bgerak ke sana sdirian

jd kene tggl ngan diorg tu bkn alasan utk aku tidak hadir ke SSA

so bgerak la aku ke shah alam seorg diri

smpai di sana hampir2 jam 7

bjaya mintak tlg kawan aku (student TESL UiTM Shah Alam) utk hantar aku ke stadium

menjejakkan kaki di perkarangan stadium hampir jam 730

bkumpul bsama UTS & UM & ahli2 sub-ultras yg lain sebelum bgerak masuk ke stadium

dpt je tempat..maka bermulalah chants kami utk menyuntik semangat para pemain

walaupun time tu diorg x masuk padang lagi..tp kami tetap menyanyi utk mereka

penat naik bus blom ilang lagi ni..tp bile dpt bsama2 mereka2 yg sehati dan sejiwa dgnku ini

kepenatan langsung x dirasai

tumpuan diberikan kepada capo/leader ultras yg mengepalai sorakan..bukan kpada perlawanan

alhamdulillah..sorakan kami sedikit sebanyak memberi semangat buat anak2 buah K.Rajagobal

Malaysia menang lagi..kali ni dgn pasukan yg pernah beberapa kali menewaskan kita

menang 2-0!! (jaingan oleh Safiq Rahim & Amirulhadi Zainal)

gembira bukan kepalang lagi aku dan rakan2 walaupun ini cuma friendly match

gembira bkn hanya disebabkn kemenangan pasukan kebangsaan..tp juga gembira dgn peningkatan mutu permainan mereka

insyaAllah..diharapkan kegembiraan ini akan berterusan sehingga Malaysia kembali menjadi kuasa besar bola sepak Asia..seperti dahulu

yg penting..aku akan tetap bdiri di belakang mereka..menyumbangkn keringat dan suara setakat yg termampu

TAHNIAH HARIMAU MALAYA!!!

btolak pulang ke melaka selepas perlawanan dan tiba hampir jam 4 pagi

penat?sangat penat..tp tidurku masih dalam senyum..

Terkilan~

having this kind of feeling cos i couldnt see my dear friend who just came to visit Melaka for her holiday..she didn't come for me..but yet i really wished i could spend a lil bit of my time..hanging around with her..but since it has been raining for few days now in Melaka..i couldn't do that..maybe i'll see her again soon..btw..sorry Suha sbb x dpt lepak ngn ko..aku duk ajak ko dtg Melaka..tp aku x dpt jmpe ko plak..xpe2..next time kite lepak ye!

keSAKITan~!!

semalam..berakhirlah sudah pementasan rasmi teater Tembok Kaca

actually the whole thing (practices and everything) da lama start

tp teater tu baru dipentaskan smalam

obviously muka smua yg tlibat smalam menunjukkan reaksi penat + lega

and i was one of them

Poster lama (taken from http://danieldeadie.blogspot.com/)

dua hari terakhir (25/26 Januari 2011) tu mmg myakitkan bagi aku

from my achilles up to my neck..everything was in pain

smpaikn hari pementasan..i was limping around due to the excessive pain

before staging..cramp kaki skejap

nasib baik x trok sgt

aku gagahkn jgk badan ni utk bertahan smpai la pementasan tamat

abes2 je staging..blk dr dinner..aku tros collapsed atas tilam aku yg empuk ni

tp smpaikn arini..sakit bdn aku still ada..bdn pon da start panas semacam..demam!!

nasib baik la esok da xde klas n cuti CNY aku da bmula

so bleh la berehat lama sket..smbil2 wat AE time cuti ni

nk upload pics teater..tp aku xde pics utk diupload

x sempat2 nk amek pics pon..n org lain pon xde yg nk bgambar ngn aku

aku ni bkn plakon..x feymes..SM yg duk blkg pentas..haha (ayat kcewa)

tp x kesah pon..yg pntg..aku tau aku da cuba yg terbaik on my first try in becoming the SM

hope people do think i did a good job

so,till next time..i'll take my leave first

need my rest